Self Confidence

I need more self confidence, right? But not too much, because then I'm living in my own world, don't you think? And that either makes you the fool, or shuts others out. Unless you're rich or famous, or even infamous. Then I guess it's ok, even expected. But I don't know. What do you think?

Americans LOVE self confidence combined with delusion. It is the stuff of rock stars and politicians; why we prescribe for shyness; the reason we embrace adults who attempt to remain children; why we reprimand ourselves when we notice that we're not showing "pride". It is why Rush Limbaugh, George Bush, Dr. Laura, and the latest teen rock face are popular, though they are all idiots. It is why we are on the fence about Tom Cruise, religion, and drag queens: because they make us doubt. It is why you hate Michael Moore and Hillary Clinton.

But what about self confidence born of trust: trust that whatever happens or whatever anyone says about you, it will be ok? This might be a self confidence that is not one of delusion, but one of ignorance. It is the reason we idolize childhood, and mourn its loss. But we have seen it in adult form in people we call profits, such as jesus and the buddha. So we strive to be like them, to remind ourselves of what is good. But what if all that it took was trust?